…when trying to add a minor modification to a piece of Lisp code you want to use:
;; This is of course an overkill, but Lisp is such a fun ;; language... Test yourself, read this! ;-) ;;
Yeah, sure. Would anyone in the know care to fix this so that I can use
arbitrary MediaWiki URLs
with it?
In other news, I’m not dead, only drifting through my life aimlessly, without
major emotions towards either end. No interesting discoveries, no catastrophes,
no endorphin explosions. Even the fact that I got myself a
X40 to replace my aging A31p looks only mildly exciting.
I formally submitted my resignation from my job at
great deal since the decision behind this was made some time in late 2003, but
it still feels significant since I’ve been with the company from our common
humble beginnings (me freshly graduated from school, the company consisting of
the founders, another employee and me) in 2000. A lot of things have changed
since then, not all for the better, but it’s definitely too early to
links on that one, it’s all there, somewhere…).
At least until the end of the year, I’m resolved to be a full-time student
and find out whether there’s any future for me in physics. I damn well hope so,
because I got tired of doing software qua software some time ago, and there’s a
lack of other perspectives out there – the only other thing I consider both
interesting and promising for a decent amount of bread-winning is economics, and
I doubt I’ll go very far there if I can’t handle the mathematics in my physics
courses. There, I said it. I’m dreadfully afraid of the mathematics courses.
Rationally, I’m pretty sure I can handle it, but there’s a number of things that
worry me. First: the last time I regularly dabbled in mathematics any more than
skimming papers or playing with algorithms was back in school, and that’s six
years gone now. I had thought that it might be a good idea to buy some
introductory text books and attempt to work from them before I actually start
university, but my progress so far has been rather disappointing, which didn’t
exactly achieve the relief I had intended. People I’ve talked to have assured me
that trying on my own is one of the harder paths to take, but I’m still a bit
shaken by that result.
On the good side? I desperately cling to the memory of doing rather well in
school (probably worsening my
complex), and I still get a lot of evidence that I’m not entirely stupid.
When I look at myself today, however, I see a lot more insecurity about my
intellectual capacities than I did five years ago. I have a hard time
determining how much of that can be attributed to the fact that I’m vastly
better educated now than I was then, and how much is actually "intelligence
decay", whatever its reasons may be, but I figure that I’ll just have to
take the leap and find out whether the current me is still competitive in the
realm of abstract reasoning.
Was that interesting? Well, at least I feel better after writing it down.
